I was put into a sleeping bag and suffocated by the babysitters my parents trusted to leave me with.
I don’t know if I was 3 years old yet.
I remember going limp, but I do not remember waking up.
I don’t believe I really ever fully woke up again.
But God, I am trying. I am trying so hard. And if I never can fully, I hope what I am saying helps another girl.
I left my counselor when he told me to look at what happened to me with my own eyes.
I never went to see him again.
Because feeling it is hard enough.
Forcing yourself to actually see it, I don’t know if I can ever come back from that.
But girls, anyone.
If you find someone like I trusted that tells you to see it.
Because I am stuck in limbo. And I am spinning and floating and I have no sense of gravity or balance.
Do not be like me, be stronger. Trust someone.