Excerpts from the beginnings of my Novel Manuscript

She got married.  I been out of contact with her for a multiple of years again.  But her social media profile showed she was married.  I thought maybe it was a sign that she was ok.  I decided to friend-request  her – after I figured out that people can “follow” me on Facebook and I saw that 4 people were ‘following’ me – she is one of them.  I don’t know how long or exactly how that all works. 

But since she has been ‘following’ me and her profile showed she was married, I hoped for the best.  I did see her husband’s name listed as “Joey Vegas”.  Which I thought as a definite sign of red flags and uh-oh.  But I was reserving judgement, hoping he was some MMA or UFC fighter – a magician or whatever.  Unfortunately, it has an appearance of hard-core drug use – because when the charges show hard core drug possession, use, and hard-core drug paraphernalia – that is a clear indication that someone is smoking or shooting up what is already a hard-core drug.  In layman’s terms; seeing that I am the layman in this scenario, I can be wrong. 

But how many ways can that be interpreted?   

Fucking Mrs. Joey Vegas.

Fucking me for opening up a can of worms that I hoped for the best about.  It was a 70-30 luck of the draw whether it was a ‘can of worms’ or she was doing well.

Hope is a fickle bitch. 

Published by Trudy Sobocienski

My blog, "Beyond Leadership" is a creative place to share my personal feelings and thoughts while working in leadership roles for a variety of Alaska Native organizations, both for and not-for profit entities. An incredible leader and mentor of mine once asked while we were in Washington, DC, "What happened to you between the ages of 7-10 that motivated you to serve in a native leadership capacity". I was struck by that poignant thought and as such, include actual entries from my mother and my diaries beginning in the early 1970's. I enjoy sharing these excerpts because it captures the parallels she and I were experiencing throughout life, from two separate worldviews. Hers as a young mother of four and mine as her eldest child. I have never came across a book on leadership that lays bare a leaders personal feelings, thoughts, hopes, fears and dreams they were experiencing. So for me, my goal is two-fold: 1. Share the incredible life my parents created for my siblings and I growing up in remote Alaska; and, 2) Sharing my humanity, through my personal diaries and journals, while serving as the youngest-ever President/CEO for the Alaska Native Health Board. There are passages that will include significant policy issues I was working on throughout my career and travels. There are many more passages that do not. I cannot speak for my mom's passages, because I am reading them as I share them here, with you; with her permission of course.

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