December 21, 2003:Diary Entry

“If you have made mistakes….there is always another chance for you…you may have a fresh start any moment you choose, for this thing we call “failure” is not the falling down, but the staying down.” Mary Pickford (1893-1973) American Actress

It’s funny, I’ve dreamed of buying a house, being an executive, having a college degree. Now I’m here and yet still I haven’t filled the gaping hole in my soul that I’ve been trying to fill.

Isn’t it ironic? I can be and achieve whatever role I think I should be, but still when I get there, I haven’t escaped me. I’m still here.

I bargained that if I had the money, the time, the leeway to tend to me, then I would. Now I know it’s time to invest in my soul.

I want some joy and peace and contentment.