December 12, 2003: Journal entry

(A Woman’s Journal – A blank book with Quotes by Women)”In real love you want the other person’s good. In romantic love, you want the other person” – Margaret Anderson (American Publisher 1893-1973)

Tonight I rest, or I may not.  It is a night of celebration and anticipation and serenity.

This morning I’ve accomplished a goal of substantial faith.  I signed to close on my first house.  I bought my family a beautiful home.  Then I proceeded to work for the next 10-12 hours..

My absence for my lunch break to close on my house was not without being scrutized by board member(s). It is ironic how liitle people can be while they are entrusted with prestigous roles.  Mostly, I find this problem carried out by people with self-proclaimed power.

I have this journal, that at times I was to keep cleansed just for documentary purposes (my own perameters).  But the healing aspect is having a sanctuary to rant.

I don’t even know what I want to rant about.  Just anger, bitterness, diappointment because I am grieving the loss of my rose-colored glasses.